The universe does not negotiate

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Whether we admit it or not, we all have beliefs about the nature of the universe. When I say “universe,” I don’t mean our tiny solar system and all the vast galaxies beyond. By “universe,” I mean whatever force works on us in our daily lives. Reality, maybe, is another word for it. As in, does the universe (AKA reality) care what I want or believe? Humans have asked this question since they painted with ochre and blood on cave walls.

The universe existed long before I came on the scene and presumably will continue to exist after I am gone. I am a blip. That means whenever I think my current writing project is so precious, so valuable, so momentous, so utterly guaranteed to change lives for the better . . . that surely the universe will support it, I know I’ve fallen into the trap of imagining I can negotiate with the universe. In this blogpost, I’m picking apart my beliefs to get down to the essence of my relationship to reality. I’m not a philosopher, so please don’t judge. My hope is that in this process, I will find the will to keep writing.

Belief 1: What I do matters to the universe

This belief exemplifies my molecular-level ethnocentricity. The crux of this belief is this: I’m human, therefore, I matter. By extension, what I do, no matter how small, matters. Do you believe this? I’m not sure I do. Oh, I know I have influence—I’ve conjured much havoc in my short lifespan. However, in the long run, in the big picture, have my actions mattered?

At a microlevel, I’ve mattered to a few people. I’ve made a difference in the lives of some friends, family members, and pets, perhaps a few strangers I’ve met and helped along the way. Maybe some of the projects I’ve delivered to the world have helped some struggling artists, some hapless dissertators. That’s nice. Does it matter? The few folks I’ve helped hardly constitute “the universe.”

That begs the question, how important is it that I believe what I do matters? Do I need to believe the universe cares if I can’t seem to find the motivation to write and would rather eat chocolate ice cream until I’m in a sugar coma? Clearly, I would like to believe I matter, if for no other reason than adopting this belief could serve as a weight-control strategy.

What about bees, birds, and bunnies? Do they matter? I think humans are starting to believe they do. Of course, believing they matter and acting as if they matter enough to keep them from going extinct are two different things.

When I was working on my doctorate (an eight-year slog through academic hell), I came to believe that nobody cared about my misery and frustration, especially not the universe. I learned that if I wanted to cross that “phinish” line, I would have to dredge up my own motivation, be my own advocate, and mint my own mojo because I certainly wasn’t going to get it from the universe (i.e., my dissertation chair and committee). At that for-profit university, doctoral students really were on their own.

Belief 2: I can influence the universe to work in my favor

If the universe cares what I do, it’s not hard to leap to the hopeful thought that I can manipulate it to do my bidding—or, at least, to favor me over others. Thus, it’s a short hop from I matter and what I do matters to yeah, sure, we all matter, but I matter more than anyone else, so I should be granted my wishes and desires. I blame demographics. I was born in a certain place and time. I somehow ended up in a certain body, with a certain gender and skin color. I didn’t plan it; I don’t think we get a choice on these demographic characteristics—sadly, these characteristics have led my brain toward certain beliefs, namely, that I matter more than you. I’m not proud of this propensity of my brain. However, it’s all I have to work with, and I continually work to be more aware of its shortcomings.

Well, what about the idea that if everyone matters, then none of us matters? Does your brain try to persuade you with this argument? But wait, how about those of us who are being persecuted, exploited, abused, and murdered by systemic inequities? Inequities matter because real people suffer real harm from real abuses. I do not want to be part of perpetuating systemic suffering. I come in peace.

Back to my gripe. What if the universe doesn’t actually care about me or my actions? (Say, could we devise a research project to test the question?) Even if the universe doesn’t care, is it still possible to influence it to lean toward seeing things my way? First, that statement assumes the universe has eyes, which, uh-oh, anthropomorphism strikes again, and second, attempting to influence outcomes is the endless quest of all lifeforms.

Humans are a superstitious bunch. We make sacrifices and pray to the gods of our misunderstanding in futile attempts to control our destinies. We make art to express our frustration and dedicate our tears to The Muse (another name for the universe). We dissertators seek validation from our dissertation chairs and committee members, from our peers, and from all those pompous peer-reviewed journals we are told we must court or die. We tout the books we’ve written and the papers we’ve published, as if the universe cares. Even our circle of friends and family don’t care all that much. How can they care? They don’t have time. They are busy worrying about what they are going to do next to influence the universe into fulfilling their hopes and dreams.

It’s not a moral failing to have and pursue hopes and dreams, nor is it a moral failing to choose not to pursue them. The universe (God? Fate?) distributes/imbues/endows/gives us talents (gifts?) and propensities, which we may or may not be in a position to fulfill, depending on demographics. In other words, it’s okay to get busy writing. It’s also okay to sit around and mope and do nothing. The universe (being a construct of my sputtering human brain) does not care.

Belief 3: How I feel matters

As a human driven almost totally by emotion, it’s hard to accept that my feelings have no influence on reality. Feelings are the centerpiece of my personal breakfast buffet. I’ve written in wobbly circles around this idea for a few years now. I circle back to it because some part of my brain insists that my emotions are real and can influence reality—therefore, they matter. My intellect “knows” emotions aren’t real but stumbles when asked to ignore them. My knee-jerk consideration about any decision, any action, any dilemma, is . . . how do I feel? This is so embarrassing.

It’s ridiculous to view life through only one lens. I wear glasses. Imagine if I knocked out one side and tried to drive. You should avoid northwest Tucson until I get my glasses fixed, just saying.

Maybe I’m judging myself too harshly for being a creature of emotions. I’m human. Emotions are the spice of human relationships. Living without emotions would be a living death. I don’t want to jettison my emotions (usually) but I would like to keep them in perspective—to remember that the universe doesn’t respond to how I feel. The universe responds to what I do.

The lesson of my musing is . . . get busy

I’m going to walk myself through a little exercise and hope that I’ll free up some brain space to get back to my writing project. You can try this yourself if you feel so inclined.

  1. First, does the universe care what I do? (Begs the question, Is the universe sentient? Answer unknown, but I choose to believe NO)
  2. Does it matter to my experience to know if the universe cares what I do? NO
  3. Can I influence the universe through prayer, sacrifice, weeping, moaning, gnashing, pummeling, suffering, or writing late at night? In other words, can the universe be bought or bribed? NO
  4. If the universe is oblivious to my emotional pleadings or intellectual arguments, how can I get what I want from it? I CAN’T
  5. Conclusion: Actions produce outcomes. To the extent that I can claim the universe responds to anything, I would say the universe responds to action. Recommended action: GET BUSY.

Does it work? I guess so. I seem to be writing. I acted—therefore, I am experiencing the consequences of my actions. Something like that. Whether I’m writing the right things, whether I’m writing well, whether my circle of humans will care . . . argh! I can’t worry about that now. That is fodder for a future blogpost.

Let’s get back to writing!

Year-end reflections from a former dissertator

It’s that time of year. You know what time I mean: The time when desperate dissertators swill coffee, scarf down holiday cookies, and hunker over their computers, trying to write as much as they can on their dissertation proposals or manuscripts before it’s time to go back to work.

Are you in a reflective mood? Maybe you feel pensive, a little melancholy, about the progress you’ve made this year. Maybe you feel chipper and optimistic about the great things to come. The end of the year is a fitting time to reflect on progress made in our scholarly endeavors and set our intentions for the future. I’m doing a little reflecting myself as we welcome in a new year.

A time to reflect on our scholarly progress

Are you making progress on the milestones in your Ph.D. program? It can be slow-going, I know. During most of the eight years of graduate school, I taught at a career college. Monday through Thursday, I taught morning classes, drove home for lunch, and drove back to campus for night classes. Fridays were for grading and prepping. I spent the rest of the weekend writing.

Faculty and students had a week off during the summer and a week for the winter holidays. Often we worked on Christmas Eve, right up to 10:20 p.m.

With such a haphazard writing schedule, I struggled to finish my dissertation proposal. Sometimes I felt I was making progress; other times, I felt I was writing in circles. Each time I uploaded my latest debacle to the course room, I would have a couple weeks to pick up the pieces of the rest of my life while I waited for my Chair to rip my paper to shreds.

Gradually, I morphed from student to scholar. After eight long, painful years, I defended the dissertation and earned the Ph.D. In the process, I learned how to write a lot.

Now, six years later, my writing projects are different but my goals are similar. I still have a lot to do. However, without the structure and discipline of a Ph.D. program, I have to rely on myself for motivation.

Reflecting on the past year, I feel as though I’ve been busy. What was I working on all year? I’m sure I did something! New Year’s Eve is a good time to stop and write a list.

  • I published the second book in the Desperate Dissertator Series. Aligning the Elements, seems to be finding a following. I guess I’m not the only one confounded by this challenging topic.
  • The article about rich pictures I published with The Qualitative Report at the end of 2018 has had 434 downloads this year. People like anything with pictures.
  • I published two articles (rants, really) with Medium on my favorite topic of for-profit higher education.
  • I made time for nonscholarly writing as well. I wrote a novel and finished a memoir, both of which I hope to publish in 2020.
  • I dusted off my teaching persona. I taught business classes to artists to help them bring their art into the world.

A time to set intentions for the future

Speaking of hope, now is the time to set our intentions for the future. I resist this endeavor mightily. In the past, my intentions have rarely been fulfilled. Yipes, look how I just used passive voice to describe my failure, as if I had nothing to do with it, as if some external force has repeatedly failed to “fulfill” my intentions. That bit of writing points out the vagueness of passive voice, as well as the problem with my goal-setting.

I think my intentions evaporated by February every year for three reasons: my goals were too broad, I wanted to be perfect, and I let my thoughts and feelings get in my way.

My goals were too broad

I failed to identify specific actions I could take to achieve my goals. Now, instead of setting an intention to “write a journal article,” I break the goal into small actions and I put them on my calendar. To write a journal article is my overarching objective, but to achieve the objective, I define the steps I need to take to get there:

  1. research journals
  2. choose one journal
  3. identify the journal guidelines
  4. write my research questions
  5. write an outline of the article
  6. gather current research
  7. prepare the list of references
  8. identify data sources
  9. conduct the analysis
  10. write up the results
  11. write the discussion
  12. write the introduction
  13. submit to the journal

I wanted to be perfect

I fell into the trap of perfectionism. Of course, we all want what we write to be perfect the moment it flows from our brain to the page. If only! Even on a good day (when I’m well-rested, alert, and enthusiastic about writing), I rarely get it right. Human endeavors are fraught with imperfections. I’m not exempt.

During the past year, I accepted the fact that perfection is unattainable. I stopped obsessing over every little thing and focused on getting things done. It worked!

If you find yourself repeatedly editing the same assignment, or not writing at all, stop for a moment and do an internal check to see if a desire for perfection might be part of the cause. Nobody expects dissertators to be perfect. Some Chairs and universities set stringent guidelines, rules, and expectations, which we do our best to meet. However, the truth is, the dissertation is the beginning of our research careers, not the culmination. Since I graduated, I’ve learned a lot about writing, editing, and conducting research. You will, too. In the meantime, it doesn’t have to be perfect. It just has to be done.

I let thoughts and feelings hinder my progress

Like most humans, I have thoughts and feelings about many things. This past year, I have been honing the idea that my thoughts and feelings are superfluous to accomplishing my goals. Don’t get me wrong: I don’t think it’s possible for us to suppress all thoughts and feelings, nor do I suggest we try. However, sometimes I let my thoughts and feelings hinder my ability and willingness to take action. Therein lies my downfall.

Do you get trapped in negative thoughts? Do you let your feelings overwhelm you? I have come to believe it doesn’t really matter what we think and feel. The Universe doesn’t respond to our thoughts and feelings. It only responds to what we do. Our actions move us closer to our goals.

It seems like a no-brainer, I know. I’m a slow learner. I’m also a moper and a complainer. Unfortunately, not much gets done when I mope or complain. I can waste a lot of time complaining: not enough time, not enough money, no one understands, oh woe is me.  

This past year, I’ve been experimenting with a new approach. I write out my thoughts and feelings about my project before I sit down to work. I do my whining and ranting on paper. Then I set it aside and get busy. When thoughts and feelings interrupt me (e.g., this will never work, this is stupid, I’m such a terrible writer, I’m hungry, where’s my cat), I drop them into my mental “do later” bucket and carry on with my work. I won’t say I’m always successful. Sometimes I have to take a nap. However, this past year, I’ve accomplished much more than I thought I would. That’s progress.

My hope for you

I hope you find some good writing time this winter. If not, I hope you make some time to write, good or not. Writing a few paragraphs is better than writing zero paragraphs. Put your writing time on your calendar. Make a date with yourself. Remember, it doesn’t have to be perfect. It just has to be done. The world needs your contribution. Please don’t give up.

I wish you all the best for a happy, healthy, productive new year.


Sources

Booton, C. M. (2018). Using rich pictures to verify, contradict, or enhance verbal data. The Qualitative Report, 23(11), 2835-2849. Retrieved from https://nsuworks.nova.edu/tqr/vol23/iss11/13

Booton, C. M. (2019). Aligning the elements [Desperate Dissertator Series, No. 2]. Portland, OR: Crossline Press. ISBN 978-1099364761.

Booton, C. M. (2019, July 5). R.I.P. Gainful employment rule. Medium. https://medium.com/@carolbooton/r-i-p-gainful-employment-rule-11115f38f33f

Booton, C. M. (2019, March 16). Friends don’t let friends enroll at for-profit colleges. Medium. https://medium.com/@carolbooton/friends-dont-let-friends-enroll-at-for-profit-colleges-4445a70ca12b

How to critically review the methods chapter of a dissertation

If we plan to earn a doctoral degree, we usually need to write a dissertation as part of the requirements. A dissertation is a report of large research project we implement with the approval of our dissertation chairperson and committee. Before we can begin collecting data for our project, we must write a proposal in which we describe our plan to complete our project. In the social sciences, such proposals often have three chapters.

In Chapter 1, we state the problem we propose to study, explain the background and purpose of our project, and list the questions we hope to answer with our findings. In Chapter 2, we review what other scholars have studied and try to show the gap in knowledge we hope to fill with our study. In Chapter 3, we describe our plan for accomplishing our study—this is the methods chapter.

What sections are in a methods chapter?

The methods chapter is our research plan, in which we describe in detail how we intend to carry out our project. The methods chapter of a social sciences dissertation follows a predictable format. For example, the for-profit institution I attended required the following sections (no more and no less):

  • Introduction (in this section, we briefly restate the problem, purpose, and research questions and offer an overview of the chapter)
  • Research design (what methodology have we chosen: quantitative, qualitative, or both—and why?)
  • Population and sample (who or what are we studying? How many are we going to study?)
  • Materials and instrumentation (what questions, what surveys, what protocols, what experimental equipment are we going to use to study our sample?)
  • Operational definitions of variables (usually for quantitative studies only, what variables are we trying to assess and how are we defining them so we can measure them?)
  • Procedures (what exactly are we going to do? This is an overview of the entire research plan)
  • Data collection and analysis (specifically, how will we collect and analyze data?)
  • Assumptions (what are we assuming is true about the topic, population, and research plan?)
  • Limitations (what could keep us from being entirely certain that we’ve measured what we planned to measure?)
  • Delimitations (what parameters have we set to define the scope of our study?)
  • Ethical assurances (what is our plan for protecting our research subjects and their data? How will keep our own preconceptions and biases from interfering with our conclusions?)
  • Summary (what were the main points of the chapter?)

Why is the methods chapter important?

The methods chapter is the blueprint for our study. The methods chapter should provide enough detail that another researcher could replicate the study to validate our findings. A major reason why chairs and committees reject dissertation proposals is because the methods chapter fails to provide sufficient detail.

Why should we review methods chapters in other dissertations?

Two reasons: We will learn what works, and we will learn how to improve our methods chapters so we are more likely to earn approval.

For some examples, locate some dissertations recently published in your field that use methods you are considering for your own project. Dissertators often disclose what methods they used in the titles of their dissertations. Keywords include quantitative, qualitative, phenomenological, case study, experiment, ethnographic, and narrative.

If you attend a for-profit university, select some dissertations from your institution as well as some from other for-profits and nonprofits (both public and private) so you can discern differences between documents. If you attend a public or private nonprofit university, select some dissertations from institutions comparable to your own (excluding for-profit universities). After you have read ten or so dissertations on topics similar to yours, using methods similar to yours, you will have a sense of how the elements should appear in the methods chapter.

How do we critically review a methods chapter?

Before you start, create a matrix or spreadsheet to help you keep track as you review the documents. You can assign points or grades as you go through the following checklist. Your subjective ability to evaluate the quality of each methods chapter will evolve and sharpen as you read more dissertations.

In fact, it may please you to see how many dissertators failed to follow the university template. (Don’t you do that, at least not for your proposal). You will see, the hoop we have to jump through is bigger than we might think!

Remember, we are reviewing published dissertations. Can you tell how much of the discussion was from the proposal? (Hint: Watch for future tense when it should be past tense—for example, “The research design selected for this study will be qualitative phenomenology.” Be aware, when it’s your turn: It’s easy to forget to revise future tense to past tense, and editors don’t always catch this problem.)

First, find the document’s table of contents and look for the methodology/methods chapter. It may be entitled Research Design and Methodology. It might be called simply Methods. It often is the third chapter of a proposal but depending on the institution and the field of study, it could be another chapter.

Next, for each section of the methods chapter, follow these steps:

  1. Introduction. Did the dissertator briefly restate the problem and purpose, present the research questions, and preview the sections in the chapter? Many authors exclude this important information. It might seem repetitive, but orienting readers at the start of the chapter can help them follow along as we present our argument.
  2. Research design. The research design sets the stage for the details of the research plan. First, was a discussion of research design present? (If not, whoopsie.) If you find it, or something similarly named, read that section critically, considering the following questions:
  • How much of the discussion was culled from Creswell and the like? We want some detail about the nature of the research design, but not too much. We want to avoid sounding like a textbook discussion of research design. In our proposals, we should briefly mention what the experts recommend and then explain what we plan to do and why.
  • Along those lines, how long did it take the dissertator to get around to actually identifying and describing his or her research design? Did you get the feeling there were more words than there needed to be about irrelevant topics? (Were you bored and losing interest within a couple paragraphs?)
  • Did the dissertator clearly explain why that design was selected? That is, did he or she justify the choice clearly? When I say clearly, I mean explicitly: “I chose this design because…” Readers appreciate clarity. Don’t make them search for clues!
  1. Population and sample. This section covers details about the population from which the sample was drawn and shows how the sample was selected. Consider these questions:
  • How many paragraphs did it take the dissertator to state what he or she actually did to find and recruit the sample? Or did it seem like the discussion was mostly about what a sampling plan is and what it means to have a sampling plan? (Rather than explaining the actual sampling plan?) Don’t waste valuable space reiterating textbook discussions. Get right in there and describe what you plan to do.
  • Did the dissertator state the size and location of the overall population? Was the population explicitly defined and described in terms of all relevant characteristics?
  • How big was the sample? How was the sample chosen? Did the dissertator describe the sampling process in enough detail that you could replicate this study? If not, their blueprint was inadequate.
  1. Materials and instrumentation. This section covers the practical tools and methods the dissertators used to implement their studies.
  • For quantitative social science research projects, consider these questions:
    • Did the dissertator choose an experimental design? If so, what materials or special equipment were used?
    • What instruments did the dissertator use to measure the variables? Were they existing instruments (i.e., designed by someone else and used with permission), or were they designed by the dissertator (and were they validated)?
    • How did respondents generate data—did they go online and access a Survey Monkey survey? Did they check boxes on a piece of paper with a pencil?
    • Were the procedures clearly explained so you could replicate this study?
  • For qualitative social science research projects, consider these questions:
    • Did the dissertator present an interview protocol or focus group discussion guide?
    • Did the dissertator use a video camera or an audio recorder?
    • Did the dissertator observe behavior or analyze secondary data? What forms, tools, or special equipment were used?
    • Were the procedures clearly explained so you could replicate this study?
  1. Operational definitions of variables. This section applies mainly to quantitative studies, although some qualitative researchers might define the constructs they sought to measure. Consider these questions:
  • Were the operational definitions clear, succinct, and replicable?
  • For hard-to-measure constructs (e.g., justice, leadership), were the important facets of each variable included in the definition? Did it make sense to you? Did the dissertator leave anything out?
  • Was this section brief and to the point, maybe presented with a table? Was there too much discussion? Did it seem like a repeat of the instrumentation discussion?
  1. Data collection and analysis. Consider these questions:
  • Did the dissertator write a lot about the generic type of data analysis processes one could use and not so much about the processes he or she actually did use? That is, does it read like a textbook discussion of data analysis processes?
  • Are the details of the data collection process clear? We expect some overlap with other sections. Are the details consistent in all the sections? (You’d be amazed at how often dissertators write one thing in the instruments section and something else in the data collection section.)
  • Is the data analysis plan clear? Could you replicate them? Do they make sense?
  • For quantitative studies, did they mention the types of data they collected (nominal, ordinal, interval, or ratio?) Did they use appropriate analyses techniques? Did they omit descriptions of the validation techniques they used?
  • For qualitative studies, did the dissertator describe the process he or she used to code text or images? Did the description make sense? Could you replicate the process or was it a vague claim of coding, categorizing, and magically arriving at themes?
  1. Assumptions, limitations, and delimitations. Consider these questions:
  • Were any of these three sections missing? Most for-profit university templates require dissertators include all three sections. Many dissertations published by nonprofit institutions omit the assumptions and delimitations sections. Almost all studies I have reviewed include at least a minimal description of limitations.
  • If you can find these three sections, were the discussions clear? Did they seem logical?

After you review a few methods chapters, you will start to see the rhythm and alignment of the sections. A solid methods chapter will give you just enough information, no more and no less, so that you could replicate the study yourself. The plan will seem like a logical progression toward answering the research questions (which, of course, is our goal). The actions the dissertators took will seem solid to you, even if you don’t totally understand all the techniques they applied. Their justifications for using those techniques will make sense.

Now you are ready to polish your own methods chapter. Have fun! Let me know how it goes.

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